It's now too cool to get in my pool, but in this, I have found the most wonderful chiropractor. Well, I think he is. I've only seen him twice, but he's not one of those "in the system guys." He is actually working for his patient, which makes me happy, and of course chiropractors are NON-pharmakeia. Win/Win! Until I could no longer get in my pool, daily, I had no idea how much pain was still lingering from my fall several months ago. Then there's the rain that comes in it's season here in the autumn. I can now, forecast the weather with greater accuracy than a degreed meteorologist. On a positive note, I have developed some wonderful pain relieving formulas for the Land of Goshen, LLC.
With my new found chiropractor, came his warning that I had some terrible misalignments, etc. and should take it easy the next couple of days, AND there would be discomfort! His warning was strong enough that he even said he'd see me on the weekend, if I needed him . . . He repeatedly mentioned the fact that I'd done more damage by "toughing it out." Oh, I'm definitely one to persevere . . . Gritting my teeth and denial are two of my best coping methods. Schedule and accomplishment are more important factors than pain. So, in my time of "taking it easy" I've done some serious soul searching in regard to the difference between grit, denial, and faith. Pain is very much linked to our memory, so I've also, sadly let my mind wander into some dark old days, but when I realize it, I try to quickly change my thinking.
Thinking is good, but it must be well directed and with purpose. I've not felt good enough to get any real thought provoking projects started, so there's been what I call "too much free time." I just hate it when I feel too bad to even read for very long, but for several months now, every position grows painful in less than 30 minutes. Sitting has been the absolute worst, but now, I have specific instructions to not overdo and mess up my treatment. I've given enough thought to various topics to realize, I do better if I don't let myself "think in free fall!"
Our Heavenly Father gave us wonderful things to think about. He is wonderful to not only think about, but commune with and it is only in His presence that I have found any serious relief from pain. I've also had to hear some rebuke and admonishment regarding my denial and grit, which has often been rooted in the flesh. Ouch!
So, as I have repented for trying to handle my injury "in the flesh" and repented for letting my mind wander in dark past places I didn't need to go; my body is adjusting to "being still and knowing that He is Elohim."
Be still, and know that I am Elohim . . . Psalm 46:10a
Through this I have really come to realize, I was trusting in my own determination to continue my homestead activities regardless of the pain and toll on my body, not to mention the distraction of my mind and neglect of my spirit in the painful exhaustion.
And thou shalt love YHUH thy Elohim with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength: this is the first commandment. Torah and Messiah
